Thomas Henry Huxley

1) Fight or Flight

Don’t really have much to say, cuz I don’t really care
Cuz you’re gonna do what you do

Don’t really have to speak, cuz you won’t even hear
And you’re gonna do what you do
No matter what I have to,
No matter what I have to say

Gonna head back to the cave
Where the first ones met
For the sake of convenience

Even if I’m only talking to myself
I’m no different, ain’t likely to
Listen even when the person talking
Is who knows me the best

Gonna head back to the cage, say goodbye
We’ll try again someday
Under different circumstances after we’ve broken
All the rules and glued them back together again

Infinite universes, one’s gotta be right
This one ain’t worth the time or the fight
But we’re all stuck here
Better start tonight
To try or give in, to give in to flight

2) Left Side (Go Back)

So much hype about the hype machine
Will even touch you when you sleep
Just build a screen to project
A most perfected, easily
Understandable crafted version of authenticity

No longer wait at the back
The lines are gone
They’ve been replaced
They’ve been replaced
A kiosk was built
It’s a mile a wide
It knows your face
No longer constrained

By the vagaries of a physical world
Of neighbors and children that go to a school
You pass on the way to your job
There’s no work anymore, anyway

It’s morning it snows outside
Wish I could write like [Biggie Smalls]
Wish I was deluded
Like white power does
Enough to believe
The machine was
Written for me
Maybe that’s the case

But my hunch is unless I
Crawl to the other side
Of the wires, of the wires
The algorithm’s got me on
The left side of the equal sign

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Fast asleep like an atom bomb
Trigger’s on her breath, echoes in the chamber
We have a cause for celebration
Fix this mess, she says
Tears on her cheek,
Pound the sidewalk like the kid was always right
Like a dog in a pond, try not to drown,
Keep your head above the water
Like a fish on a boat, try not to breath,
You don’t want to waste it

Pause the tape and go back (go back)

3) Entropic Visions

Fell asleep, dreamed of sunspots
Realized never seen with my eyes
Tried to hide from the reflection
Of the ghost I make with my lies
Hold me close, I am the ghost
Nobody moves to the desert
I am the ghost of this town
There’s no choice we’re breaking up, breaking up

Stayed out late, danced with zombies
Dragged my body across the sand
Tried to hide from the ghost
Who reaches out to touch my hand
Pull away, I am the ghost
I got stuck out in the desert
I am the ghost, there is no town
There’s no choice we’re breaking up, breaking up

Like the TVs of my youth
More static but the picture is better
Entropic visions of desert man
He’s following the program as best as he can

I am the ghost, I miss the ocean
Wanna go back home to a different day

Like the TVs of my youth
More static but the picture is better
Entropic visions of desert man
He’s following the program as best as he can

I am the ghost, I miss the ocean
Wanna go back home to a different day
I am the ghost, I miss the ocean
Wanna go back home to a different day

4) Living With the Ghost

Passed the cops, plastic cups on our hips
Our first night of freedom was spent grieving
Don’t know what’s gonna happen
Every block and corner was a dream
Now a spark stamped out

40 days and 40 nights
Living with the ghost of his innocence
With nothing to do but sit in fear
And wait for the night

Don’t know what we’ll tell him
Don’t know what we’ll say
So many to blame
But that’s a losing game

40 days and 40 nights
Living with the ghost of his innocence
With nothing to do but sit in fear
And wait for the night
The ghost fades from view

40 days and 40 nights
40 days and 40 nights
40 days and 40 nights
Living with the ghost

Living with the ghost
The ghost is in my head
I hear him at night but maybe we’re all
Living with the ghost

5) We're Getting By (On Ohio)

The city man has made a deal
With the builder man, what a steal
We wanted in too
We are the new kids here
We came from the south, we have no fear

We had high hopes for this dusty road
Can’t yet call our house a home

Thin walls, hear the sirens at night
Watch, don’t speak to the passersby
We’re waiting on something
To happen outside
It’s taking more time than we had in mind

We had high hopes for this dusty road
Can’t yet call our house a home

But we’re getting by
Oh we’re getting by
Yeah, we’re getting by
On Ohio

The orange building used to be teal
I liked it better when it was teal
The stray cats stick around
Until they leave we’ll hunker down

Cuz we’re getting by
Oh we’re getting by
Yeah, we’re getting by
On Ohio

We’re getting by
Oh we’re getting by
Yeah, we’re getting by
On Ohio

6) Book About a Book

I’m reading a book about a book
I’m writing letters to myself
I’m talking to nobody
I might need some help

So I’m reading a book about a book, we’re all
Going through a transition, it says
We’re all crazy in the head
Which book doesn’t matter
When we get to the other side, we’ll all be dead

I’m reading a book about a book
I’m writing letters to myself
I’m talking to nobody
I might need some help

Some people walk, some drive cars
Some people ride with others
Like on a bus or in a subway car
Some people ride short distances
Others have to go far
Maybe this matters, most likely not
These are just words
Scribbled on paper by
A man who will
Shortly be gone

I’m reading a book about a book
I’m writing letters to myself
I’m talking to nobody
I might need some help

This man doesn’t matter much
In the grand scheme of things
Most don’t, I’m afraid
Wonder what the book about the book has to say
Feeling depressed in the wake of success
It was easier to have it hard
To have to try for a day
It was easier to have it hard
To have to try for a day

I’m reading a book about a book
It’s this book about a book
I’m reading a book about a book
It’s this book about a book about another book
I’m reading a book about a book
It’s this book about a book
I’m reading a book about a book
It’s this book about a book about another book
About life

7) I Wonder

I might be standing on the ocean
Staring down at a creature on my feet
Sunlight glistens
I wonder, I wonder, I wonder how

I can see the start of the ocean
Can’t see it stop or repeat
A cloud shifts
I wonder, I wonder, I wonder why

I wonder how I got here, wonder how I’m doing
I wonder why, I wonder why,
I wonder why I’m doing this
I wonder how I got here, wonder how I’m doing
I wonder why, I wonder why,
I wonder why I’m doing this

I lost myself in the ocean
You found me on the street
Stoplight changes
I wonder, I wonder, I wonder how

I wonder how I got here, wonder how I’m doing
I wonder why, I wonder why,
I wonder why I’m doing this
I wonder how I got here, wonder how I’m doing
I wonder why, I wonder why,
I wonder why I’m doing this

Oh right, I’m not, it’s being done to me
Oh right, I’m not, it’s being done to me by my mind

I might be dreaming of the ocean
Hiding underneath your sheet
Your leg touches
I wonder, I wonder, I wonder why

I wonder how I got here, wonder how I’m doing
I wonder why, I wonder why,
I wonder why I’m doing this
I wonder how I got here, wonder how I’m doing
I wonder why, I wonder why,
I wonder why I’m doing this

Oh right, I’m not, it’s being done to me
Oh right, I’m not, it’s being done to me by my mind

I might be back in the room leafing papers
I might be out on the town looking up
I might be holding a present, I might be
I might be holding your heart in my hand
While you grip my mind
My bloody valentine
My lovesick lust of mine
I’ll give yours back to you
If you give mine back to me
Give mine back to me

I wonder how I got here, wonder how I’m doing
I wonder why, I wonder why,
I wonder why I’m doing this
I wonder how I got here, wonder how I’m doing
I wonder why, I wonder why,
I wonder why I’m doing this

Oh right, I’m not, it’s being done to me
Oh right, I’m not, it’s being done to me by my mind

8) Keep the Beat (You're Falling Behind)

I keep the beat, but my timing ain’t perfect
I slow down when you wanna go fast
I keep the beat, but don’t always listen
Forget lines when you say something strange

I keep the beat, but repeat staid patterns
Play 2 and 4 when you want 5 and 9
I keep the beat, but missed the intro
I started late when you have perfect time

I keep the beat, I try to keep up
I can’t keep up, I’m falling behind

I keep the beat, but can’t even hear you
Your mouth moves, but there are no words
I keep the beat, but fell off backwards
You stand tall while I lay on the floor

I keep the beat, I try to keep up
I can’t keep up, I’m falling behind

I keep the beat, but you know that line,
You wrote that line
You said it a 1000 times,
You said it like a roaring lion
You said keep in step, step up, straighten up
Listen closely

You keep the beat, but don’t stop to breath
You fill the room with your wicked sound
You keep the beat, but don’t repeat it
Play 5 and 9 after 2 and 4

You keep the beat, but hate the outro
Wanna go back to where we started from
You keep the beat, but it doesn’t matter
If I’m behind, we are solo

I keep the beat, I try to keep up
I can’t keep up, I’m falling behind

9) Just Figure it Out

It’s a competition on a silent TV
Between the hype machine and the animal needs
When the latter’s met, the soap plays
In the monkey brain and on the screen
It’s time to leave

And return to earth by tearing it down
The millionth attempt to figure it out
By reading the sun and asking why
The easiest path is always drowned out
By the loudest voice

When you figure it out (just figure it out)
You’ll be out of breath (just figure it out)
Just wish you could die (just figure it out)
Without regret

If the hammer hit the wrong nail
And the screen crumbled while the music played
Would the past still ring louder than truth
Or would you tune it out and
See more clearly than you do

Make love to the future
Fuck the past
Turn the ringing down
Turn it off
Gotta think about him now
Gotta think about him now
Gotta think about us

Just figure it out. Just figure it out

When you figure it out (just figure it out)
You’ll be out of breath (just figure it out)
Just wish you could die (just figure it out)
Without regret

Just figure it out
That’s all I’m asking of you
Just figure it out
Before time slips away
Just figure it out
That’s all I’m asking of you

Just figure it out
That’s all I’m asking of you
Just figure it out
Before time slips away
Just figure it out
That’s all I’m asking of you

10) NEED A FUN MOSS

“You will travel far, my little [one]. But we will never leave you, even in the face of our death. The richness of our lives shall be yours. All that I have, all that I've learned, everything I feel, all this, and more, I bequeath you, my son. You will carry me inside you, all the days of your life. You will make my strength your own, and see my life through your eyes, as your life will be seen through mine. The son becomes the father, and the father the son. This is all I can send you...”

Please Go Away

1) Old Friend Stranger, Pt1

I saw you cry on the other side
My instinct was to laugh and hide
You saw me and thought it was a game
We both wanted to know the name
Whether we’d go home together or ever speak again
Whether we were the same or we’d die alone
Or die in fame
You were my friend
My old friend, stranger

2) Talk is True

The sky never ends. The fadeout plays
in the back of your mind
Till the clock runs out of time
She reads your face. Can write a page for every
thought you never knew, you had inside of you
Talk all night. But words are never
As clear as you think. She smiles and you sink
It’s like the best words are hidden
You have no clue
You say what you can, until the talk is true.

Talk is true. Talk is true.

She said goodnight. You’re alone in your bed
You wanna go back, but you rest your head
Then the bedpost rocks. The bed moves
You’re in a queue. You hear a Boy Named Sue
It’s noisy and hazy, you wanna touch
Like strings of light. There’s nothing to clutch
An ocean of pain. Sits in your belly
like a ball of glue, until the talk is true.

Talk is true. Talk is true.

It’s a long road from brain to the mouth
The word that starts is not what always comes out
I tell lies because I can
I tell lies and you listen

Fix your gaze into my eyes.
Go on, give it a try
The only truth is that we’re here
It’s kind of cute that you have this fear

Just gotta get something out.
Just need some bullshit to shout
Just want some way to connect
Oh well, she’s gone

We’re all gloom and doom, opinionated
Reality, slowly dissipated
The llama eats, the lion
At least in a dream, if you wanted it to
A mountain looms until the media
Tells you what to do. Tells you what to do
The bullshit’s the same, hits you in the face
Till your red and blue, until the talk is true.

Talk is true. Talk is true.

3) Good Times

Yeah, I called last night, I’m still alive
Like it when you say I lied
Played a joke on your friend this morn
She said wished I’d never been born

I’m not creepy, just running out of time
I only get one life; can I blow your mind
Good times, good times, good times

Don’t have a motive, I get ticked off
By him and her and this dude on the block
He praises Jesus, says find a god
My god is living; he wants to stop
Some friends got ghosts at home, most are cool
A few even think they’ve heard of you
I keep plastic sheep, I keep three
Hope you meet them when you come see me

Lucky I’m not packing; you’re kind of rude
I wouldn’t hurt a fly, I’m a real nice dude
Good times, good times, good times

Opinions are like pigeons, keep four
When I’m ready, I’ll tell you some more
Not hurting too much, it’s barely a sting
Used my last wish to stick in me

I’m not lonely, you like being free
Call me on the other side, please, please
Good times, good times, good times

4) My Baby's a Bull

My baby’s a bull
My baby’s a bull riding
Son of a
Bull shitting, badmouthing

My baby’s a runt
Puts chocolate in his coffee
Sugar in his tea
He says to me, says to me
He says to me, says to me

Shhh, I shut him down
I shut him down

My baby’s a giant
Giant fist of a tree
Son of a
Smart allecky, toe tapping

My baby’s a wizard
He sleeps upside down
Smokes juice through his ear
He says to me, says to me
He says to me, says to me

Shhh, I shut him down
I shut him down
My baby’s a snake
His eyes see through me
Son of a
Wisecracking, knuckle dragging

My baby’s a bruiser
But says thanks and please
Leans close to talk
He says to me, says to me
He says to me, says to me

Shhh, I shut him down
I shut him down

There was once a day when he was a little babe
I held him close, now I’m in his way
His mind is big, his body small
His heart is strong. He can never fall.
At least not enough to block his path
I taught him more than reading and math
His mind is big, his body small
His heart is strong. He can never fall.

His mind is big, his body small
His heart is strong. He can never fall.

5) Specter

You go away, you go away
And I stay, I stay

There is no reason to lie
You have the time
To just give your life away
It’s no big deal

You go away, you go away
And I stay, I stay

I only ask why you never cry
You could all the time
Funny how the story’s the same
It’s never even real

You are always around
Standing on my ground
Please go away
You are always around!

You go away, you go away
And I stay, I stay

There is no point to try to change the game
You win every time
Even if we played by the same rules
You’d find ways to cheat

You are always around
Standing on my ground
Please go away
You are always around!
You are always around!
You are always around!

6) Another One

It’s too bad, it’s too bad
There’s another in my house
But he doesn’t remember
The way we used to play

I kicked your shin when you said I loved you
I was just scared, you were a giant
In my mind
That was back when we were seven
Now we haven’t talked in eleven
Years, such a waste

It’s too bad, it’s too bad
There’s another in my house
But he doesn’t remember
The way we used to play

You didn’t know I watched you always
Even when we weren’t together
I made some tapes
I started working when you went to heaven
The third one lived but he had eleven
Fingers on his hands

It’s too bad, it’s too bad
There’s another in my house
But he doesn’t remember
The way we used to play

We started as friends till I said, “I love you”
His memory was not what I remembered
It was in jest
Turns out I was your enemy
And now he’s making up an army
From backup drives

It’s too bad, it’s too bad
There’s another in my house
But he doesn’t remember
The way we used to play

It’s too bad, it’s too bad
There’s another in my house
But he doesn’t remember
The way we used to play

1) Old Friend Stranger, Pt2

You said my name only once that day
Your instinct was to come and play
You brushed my hair, I touched your face
We both shivered in that place
I said goodbye at the bus, I had much more to say
But you were dead to me after you went away
You were my friend
My old friend, stranger

My Devil

1) Just a Word

We take comfort in names like God and the big bang
We can worship the truth, to some they’re the same
Wish I could die tonight just to know what it’s like
Write to paper the story, explain space and time

Death’s not imaginary
It’s a singularity
Until it happens to you
It’s just a word

A million moments can be lived, an infinite number of smiles to give
Wasted time being busy, days on nights stuck in pretend
Plastic lips, brushed on tats, what we see is where it’s at
Screens on screens on screens on screens, it’s hard to hug cuz we’re so fat

Death’s not imaginary
It’s a singularity
Until it happens to you
It’s just a word

Judgement is not a virtue, these words are not at you
Just because I’m self-absorbed, doesn’t mean I don’t love you too
I guess not knowing is okay, whether god or the big bang
There’s no such thing as the truth, only joy and pain [and the mundane]

Death’s not imaginary
It’s a singularity
Until it happens to you
It’s just a word

Death’s not imaginary
It’s a singularity
Until it happens to you
It’s just a word

2) Me and Bubble

She’s a lot like me
She’s a lot like me

Me and Bubble Girl blasted off on KFC
Landed on the moon, planted seeds, flew back home

She’s a lot like me
Cuz I have a gun/And I shoot it at the sun
She’s a lot like me

Our love affair lasted a year
Our moon son grew into a bear
The parachute went off
Afterward, we ate some flies
He said he was not small town
He said he was not small town
He said he was not small town
Wasn’t small town

She’s a lot like me
Cuz I have a gun and I shoot it at the sun
And our son lives on the moon
Please, son, come home soon
Cuz we miss you every day
Since the day you went away
And if you have a gun, shoot it at the sun

She’s a lot like me

It’s just me and Bubble (in this small town)
I go to her apartment (in this small town)
We get postcards (in this small town)
He says someday he’ll visit (in this small town)
We’ll eat some flies (in this small town)
But now it’s me and Bubble (in this small town)
Oh it’s just me and Bubble (in this small town)

3) Everyone Ever

There must be a devil inside of me
He knows where I live
He knows what I am
He’s a long-lost friend

There must be a heaven someday
It’s an algorithm or two
It’s a place without food
It’s a place without you

I don’t really wanna be, I don’t really wanna be, I don’t really wanna be
A digital copy without my devil

There must be a perfect replica
Of the best copy of me
When the devil inside of me
Could least be seen

I don’t really wanna be, I don’t really wanna be, I don’t really wanna be
A digital copy without my devil

There must be a methodology
To live long enough
To find a place in the brain
Immortal soul’s not sane

I don’t really wanna be, I don’t really wanna be, I don’t really wanna be
A digital copy without my devil
I don’t really wanna be, I don’t really wanna be, I don’t really wanna be
Immortalized, perfected, piece of shit

However, there’s an upside to this
Wouldn’t have to say goodbye
Wouldn’t have to leave them
Everyone ever loved
Everyone ever loved
Everyone ever loved
Everyone ever

4) Still Love

There’s no time like today to sell away their future
Will the monkeys be okay when they learn there is no mother?

Our pets are our slaves, our kids are our pets
Our TV’s our god, our feed’s our morality
Our bankers are blue, our pols are red
Our heart, soul and mind are black
But we can still love

There’s no time in the bank
You treat death like a cheap slut
Will the ground love your face when fat lips become our flowers?

Our pets are our slaves, our kids are our pets
Our TV’s our god, our feed’s our morality
Our bankers are blue, our pols are red
Our heart, soul and mind are black
But we can still love

There’s no time in a brain
The puppets have a button
Will the child be safe?
When have we cared?
There’s always another

Our pets are our slaves, our kids are our pets
Our TV’s our god, our feed’s our morality
Our bankers are blue, our pols are red
Our heart, soul and mind are black
But we can still love

5) Your Pretty hat

The only kinds of bears we like to call our friends are not real
The only kinds of friends we like to call our bears are not real

Your pretty hat, was a bear, in the woods
He lived alone, in a tree, down the street from his family
Some called him Tim, some called him D
Daughter Faye loved brother Joe
Neither knew him, neither cared
Only mother knows
The killing ways, were in the past
Axes and chains were all the same
The huggers died too, tripped on roots
He started with the shoes
Nine lives. No, not like a cat
He’s not fat. Don’t like honey
No can swim
No canned tuna for my friend

The only kinds of bears we like to call our friends are not real
The only kinds of friends we like to call our bears are not real

For heaven’s sake, he hibernates
Sleeps all day, sleeps half a year
Pretty simple way to stay alive
Don’t be a dolt
Anyway, he gave it up
Before he got shot, prayed all night
Found a god, found love in his brethren
On that day, that fateful day, he was on his way, wanted to say
He wanted to explain…
That he didn’t know
Didn’t know, man was people, people know god, God was love, love doesn’t kill
Then they killed him/Now he’s on your head

The only kinds of bears we like to call our friends are not real
The only kinds of friends we like to call our bears are not real

6) Karmic Justice

Every day is karmic justice for the things that I have done
I killed a man in seventy-three, left him in the sun

His son came to my doorstep hand held out in front
He said, “money’s all I need, leave the rest to the man above”
“What if this is all there is?”
He shrugged and pointed at the sun

Ooh
Every day is karmic justice for the things that I have done
I killed a man in seventy-three, left him in the sun

“Today my pockets are empty, there’s smokes and booze out back”
“Nah man, think I’ll mozy along, you seem like a pretty cool guy”
“I’ve made some big mistakes”/He shrugged and said “guilt is a waste”

Ooh
Every day is karmic justice for the things that I have done
I killed a man in seventy-three, left him in the sun

His son left my doorstep
Walked toward the sky
He turned, said “I’ve changed my mind”
”Which one are you thinking?”
“Kill me or have a drink?”
He shrugged and then I pulled my gun

Ooh

7) Natural Causes

When the stock market crashed, they made a pact
Let the weak die young
It happened so fast
Mommies with strollers disappeared
Test tube baby’s world premier
These lines of morbidity now live in my brain after a night of drinking, sex and cocaine
Never done drugs, mom; fiction’s the truth when trying to uncover what’s inside of you

Natural causes of living
Only to die in your mind

If we could erase the lines of memory from tape, would the zombies feast or wake?
This cowboy nation is a myth creation
Star spangled banner sung
Don’t know which light is on
Peasantry is alive and well
The villagers can’t find the smell
Rain only makes it worse
Don’t have to make it worse
Stains on the bedsheet on my body at night
Are dried ink and mascara and I don’t know why

Natural causes of living
Only to die in your mind

There’s a worm inside my brain, finds the words I say
Stories don’t go anywhere
I’m stuck inside
I need to lie
Or I’ll die
I entertain
I’m your friend for days
I’m not real, this is not real
You are not listening
I’m not real, this is not real
You are not listening

Natural causes of living
Only to die in your mind

8) Sweet Monster

Don’t be scared
Don’t be scared
I’m the super sweet monster with the super sweet cereal, cereal wah ah oh oh

Count chocula?
No!
Boo berry?
No!
Franken berry?
No!
Yummy Mummy, Yummy Mummy

Don’t be scared
Don’t be scared
I’m the super sweet monster with the super sweet cereal, cereal wah ah oh oh

Hauntingly delicious
Vitamin charged
Hauntingly delicious
Scrumptious and yummy and scrumptious and yummy

I want to eat your cereal
I want to be your friend
I want to play with monsters
I want to be your friend

9) Sickness Stuck Inside

Got a band around his arm, circle on his chest
Can’t squeeze one out
It’s not his fault
He traveled so far and lost his ma
Held captive in here, sleeps on the couch
Never knew what life to want
We liked him so much but was it ever enough?

Sickness stuck inside
Death only needs about a half a day
He can try and try and try and try
Sickness stuck inside

We met out west and tried our best to sleep on the ground, to touch the stars
Interstate 70
Kansas, Missouri
Interstate 80
Nebraska, Illinois Nebraska, Illinois
Nebraska, Illinois
Nebraska, Illinois
Nebraska, Illinois

Sickness stuck inside
Death only needs about a half a day
He can try and try and try and try
Sickness stuck inside

Fire in the canoe burned out too soon
Floated down stream
Miss my friend
Last was seen in a desert scene
A whistle blew, but he’d gone deaf
Never knew what life to want
We liked him so much but was it ever enough?

Sickness stuck inside
Death only needs about a half a day
He can try and try and try and try
Sickness stuck inside

10) Gonna Die

I got a backup drive for my mind
The colors were first, the numbers went one by one
We’re gonna leave for good, but we don’t know where and we don’t how
But it’s a sunny day and it feels alright, right now, today

Walking forward, walking backward, walking together, walking alone
Satan and Santa both wear read, but neither like my momma said
Cosby and Ted and Alan and Fred, you wrote it all down, we heard what you said
We’re on a spaceship and we’re gonna die
We’re on a spaceship and we’re gonna die
We’re on a spaceship

The bugs will win in this tiny old town, but right now, I’ve got to pack up my mind
We’ll leave our bodies behind and it’ll be ok and the sun still shines, right now, today
We were floating in a warp drive and the spin reversed and the field went cold and the sun blanked our homes
And the core erupted and even though the sun killed us all the idea of us shines on, right now, today

Walking forward, walking backward, walking together, walking alone
Satan and Santa both wear read, but neither like my momma said
Cosby and Ted and Alan and Fred, you wrote it all down, we heard what you said
We’re on a spaceship and we’re gonna die
We’re on a spaceship and we’re gonna die
We’re on a spaceship